Conor by Eric Clapton

"I found a pattern in my behavior that had been repeating itself for years, decade even. Bad choices were my specialty, and if something honest and decent came along, I would shun it or run the other way. It could be argued that my choices reflected the way I saw myself, that thought I wasn't worthy of anything decent, so I could only choose partners who would ultimately abandon me, as I was convinced my mother had done, all those years ago."

 "Tears in Heaven" is a ballad written by Eric Clapton and Will Jennings about the pain Clapton felt following the death of his four-year-old son, Conor, who fell from a window of the 53rd-floor New York apartment of his mother's friend, on March 20, 1991. Clapton, who arrived at the apartment shortly after the accident, was visibly distraught for months afterwards. This song is one of Clapton's most successful, reaching #2 on the Billboard Hot 100 singles chart in the U.S. The song also spent three weeks at #1 on the American adult contemporary chart in 1992.

I admire  Eric Clapton's courage in accepting who he really was, even though he needed to face his failures as a lover, as a father and as a person.

I appreciate how he thoroughly reflected on his behavior so he may recognize his flaws and eventually transform those flaws into his strengths.

I think that the reflections and acceptance that Eric Clapton went through must also happen  in my life so I may clearly understand the patterns of my behaviors and the necessary changes that I must have to stop the cycle of losing and crying.


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